*~*~*~* Duana must have been exhausted. It was half an hour past dawn and she had not stirred yet - had not even moved as he pulled back the blankets to check for other marks. Finding none, he simply stared at her while he tried to decide what to do. Eventually, she opened her eyes, blinking sleepily and trying to figure out what was wrong as she found him looming over her. "Did the table grow fingers?" he asked, trying not to sound as furious and frightened as he felt. "Rings?" She shifted her shoulders, stretching her arms. "William?" she began, and then stopped mid- yawn as she realized her face ached. "Who hit you?" he snapped. "Damn it, Duana - how could you not tell me! Someone poisoned the guards and came in here and struck you! I swear to God I will-" "What, William? What will you do? Start hanging men as you please?" "Damn right someone is going to hang." "This is not Wales; you will end up in The Tower or dangling from the end of a rope yourself. Will you challenge a man younger and quicker with a sword and get yourself killed? It is just a bruise. I will live, and I would prefer you did as well." She started to sit up and turn her back to him; he pushed her down on the mattress, so livid he was having trouble breathing. "You are my wife. As long as we are in England, you are my property. Not in Wales, but here you are the same as a horse or a plot of land under the law. If you do something wrong, it is my place to correct you, no one else's. I could beat you senseless in the middle of Westminster and men would nod and say what a good husband I was, but no one would interfere or touch you without my consent. Never! Not for any reason. I do not care what you did or said. Goddamn it!" He picked up some knickknack from the table beside the bed and threw it at the wall, feeling slightly satisfied as it shattered against the whitewashed stones. "How dare you not tell me!" Duana closed her eyes again, turning her face away from him. As he watched, a tear appeared on her cheek. "Damn it," Gwilym said, trying not to cry himself and mostly succeeding. "Tell me who did this. That is all you have to do." She shook her head 'no.' "I will stay here. No one will think you struck me. No one will even see me. Then we can leave for Wales." "Piss on people seeing you. I am going to drag you up on the king's dais and demand to know who did this if you do not tell me." Her head continued to move 'no.' He was afraid he would lose his temper completely if they kept arguing, so he stood up, putting some air between them until he cooled down. "I have to go swear homage to the damn brat-king," he said, using his distant, authoritative tone. "Do not leave here or open the door until I return." Pivoting on his toes, he stalked out, slamming the bedchamber door behind him. "Get up and bar the door!" he yelled, and heard her footsteps hurry across the floor and the bolt slide into place. Gwilym picked up his sword and sheathed it before opening the door to the hallway, his teeth clenched so hard he could hear his heart pounding in his ears. One of Llewelyn's guards fell in step behind him, but Gwilym stopped. "Stay with my wife. If you let anyone in that door or let her out before I get back, you answer to me, not Llewelyn this time," he ordered. "You do not want an escort to Westminster? Prince Llewelyn said to escort you to Westminster and see you arrived on time," the young knight said, still dazzled by his first trip to London. "What if there is trouble? What if someone sees that you are Welsh and-" Gwilym spun around, his dark eyes snapping dangerously, and the knight decided this was the wrong morning for any foolish Norman to pick a brawl with the Lord of Gwynedd. Without another word, the guard resumed his post on the left side of the door to the apartments, swallowing nervously and watching as Lord Gwilym walked away. *~*~*~* Llewelyn was waiting outside the church, head pounding, watching for Gwilym to arrive, accompanied by four worried-looking Welsh knights. Gwilym was famous for telling Llewelyn, as his liege lord, to piss off and showing up to pay homage as he felt the need. He was always there when called on to fight and there was no question of his loyalty, so Llewelyn just overlooked the absences as one of Gwilym's many quirks. It would not do to ignore this summons, though, even if they both had sons older than the new king. "Christ, Llewel - did you spend last night soaking your sorrows in a barrel of ale?" Gwilym asked him, swinging down from his saddle. He sniffed the Prince of Wales, then added, "Or were you dipping your wick in the London wares?" The knights studied the muddy street, and Llewelyn glared at him. His eyes were bloodshot and the knuckles of his right hand were raw. His boots were polished and his clothing was fresh - probably thanks one of the knights - but he looked miserable, as though every inch of his skin hurt as badly as his head. "My son - you saw him." "I did; he looked to be drawing breath." "You cannot understand." "Perhaps I can," Gwilym shot back, still eager to pick a fight with someone. He wanted to say something like 'I have a tomb you can visit, if you want to grieve,' but tearing out Llewelyn's heart would not bring back Dafydd. So Gwilym said nothing, and the Prince just stared at him, grimacing at the sunlight and smelling of some Southwark brothel. "Let us just get this over with," Llewelyn finally said, and signaled the doorman. "Fine, but I need to speak with you after. About my wife." "What of her? Besides that she needs to learn some manners. There is no excuse for her locking you out last night." "It seems someone already tried to teach her some manners," Gwilym replied as the doors to Westminster opened and their names were announced to the King. Llewelyn gave him a pained, puzzled look, but there was no more time for private discussion. They approached the dais as commanded, waiting for the King - a slim, dark-haired boy of ten or so - to acknowledge them. A few feet to Henry's right stood Fitz, acting as regent, high counsel, kingmaker: in reality, the ruler of England. "Your majesty, Prince Llewelyn of Wales and William of Aber, Lord of Gwynedd. You requested Lord William pay homage to you," Fitz supplied for the boy, who nodded. "Lou-heln. Luh- Louiselen," he tried, then started over. "Luh-hu-welin?" He glanced at Fitz, who mouthed 'Llewelyn' again. "How is my sister Joanna, Llewelyn?" The Prince of Wales shifted uncomfortably. "She is well, your majesty." "Lord William," Henry said eagerly, looking at Gwilym, "You have married the Count of Pembroke's widow, yes? The Countess has become the Lady of Gwynedd?" "Yes - oui," Gwilym replied, remembering he was expected to speak instead of just understand French. "I am told she is well and that you have a daughter now." Young Henry seemed to have fond memories of Duana, just as she had of him. "Yes: Eimile. And a son. He is a few weeks old." He felt like a fool explaining this to a boy who should be out playing crusader and searching for imaginary dragons instead of sitting on a throne. The idea that Eimile, Dafydd, Princess Joanna, and this King Henry shared a father was just too odd, even for Gwilym. Henry said something quickly in French, getting exited, but Fitz shook his head, reminding him that Gwilym's French was not good. "His name?" he asked, shortening his sentences. "What is your son's name?" "We have not chosen a given name, your majesty. He is 'ap Gwilym of Aber,' of course, but we call him 'Mab.' It means 'the male child of,' much like 'fitz." "David is a good Welsh name. A saint's name," Henry suggested. "David, son of William of Aber: that has a nice sound to it. Mark that down," he ordered the scribe, who scribbled away. "Your majesty..." Fitz began. "David was the patron saint of Wales, Fitz!" Henry protested, not understanding what he was doing wrong. "He has not yet named his son and I have helped him." Gwilym opened his mouth to protest and Llewelyn gave him a none-too-subtle nudge. "Lord William had a base born son named David." Fitz whispered to Henry. "Remember? We spoke of it this morning." "So he has a bastard son and a legitimate son sharing the same name. How many bastard Henry's did my father have?" 'One too many,' Gwilym thought, but managed not to say through some sort of God-like effort. "It is a Norman custom: naming sons alike," Henry continued, "You also said this morning that Lord William could use a little Norman civilizing if he was going to be married to the Countess. Really, Fitz, I do not understand you sometimes. Lord William, is your wife with you?" "Yes... Your majesty," he remembered to add, not sure if he should be amused by this joke of a boy or furious. He could call Mab whatever he wanted, but in London and for posterity, the young lord of Gwynedd would always be 'Dafydd.' There was a poetic justice to that, somehow. "Then swear your oath and let us go see her. This is all I have to do this morning, yes, Fitz? After the Welshmen, I can go play, right?" Fitz nodded. "She is unwell this morning," Gwilym said quickly. "You will not interrupt me! You will not argue with me! I am the King! I want to see the Countess, and you will take me to her!" Henry yelled at Gwilym. "You need your ass warmed until you can learn some respect, King or no!" Gwilym shot back, luckily in Welsh, and luckily in the almost-empty hall of Westminster. Few nobles were at Court in winter, though Llewelyn looked dully horrified just the same. Gwilym swallowed, and answered more politely in French, "Of course. My wife speaks fondly of you, your majesty. She recalls when you were just a boy." That had the desired effect, and Henry relaxed, puffing up a bit. "Swear, and then I have a prop- a prop- I have an offer for you and Prince Lu-helen. Llewelyn. Do you want my scribe to read the oath?" Gwilym shook his head 'no,' quickly knelt, and recited: "By the Lord God, I will be to King Henry faithful and true, and love all that he loves and shun all that he shuns, according to God's law and according to the world's principles, and never, by will nor by force, by word or by work, do ought of what is hateful to him; and on condition that he keep me as I am and willing to deserve, I, Llwynog ap Gwilym of Aber, Lord of Gwynedd, swear fealty and service." There - it was done. And, as Duana would say, the world had not ended. "That is much to remember, especially when you do not speak French well," Henry said in awe. "Oaths and the Roman Kings Caesars: those are most difficult to keep straight." Gwilym's mouth twitched. He was calmer now that it was over and he had not felt like a complete idiot. His oath was to the Crown, not so much this simple child. It was Llewelyn's turn to swear an oath of faithfulness and service, which he knelt and did efficiently. Henry nodded, and Llewelyn rose, then stood waiting beside Gwilym. Fitz cleared his throat and mouthed 'proposition.' "Yes, the prop-po-sition," Henry remembered. "Wales and Dover and France and the Welsh boy in The Tower. Fitz, I do not remember. May I go play?" Fitz shook his head, but took over for the boy. "First, Prince Llewelyn, the King will conditionally release your son. Wales has been loyal for a year now, and the King believes you have learned your lesson. The sentence of execution has been repealed and you, if you agree, may stay in London with him until the King gives you leave to return to Wales. Or you may return for him later. Regardless, he will be released from The Tower." "Thank you, your majesty," Llewelyn said, remembering to address Henry instead of Fitz. Henry was busy trying to scratch an itch deep in his ear and did not seem to notice. "But," Fitz continued, "The Welsh cannot have nothing else to do except think up ways to rebel against England. The lands that should have passed to Countess - to Lady Duana - the King will restore the estates in the south of Wales to her on the condition that Lord William can manage to rid England of the Frenchmen in Kent and Dover. You figure out a way for the Crown to take back Dover, William, and the King will give you the lands in south Wales as her dowry. As your liege lord, Llewelyn would hold all of north and south Wales." "You cannot manage to keep peace in the south anyway," Llewelyn said. "You give me back my son but you assure that I will be too busy trying to subdue the Marcher Lords in south Wales to rebel again." "Yes," Fitz replied. "You are quick. The King does not have money to keep pouring into fighting in south Wales, so he will give it to you and let you deal it. As long as Wales is loyal to you and you are loyal to the Crown, it is a good trade. He cannot fight wars against every country around him. Lord William is said to be quite the military strategist; if he can figure out a way to get the French out of England, which is no small task, the Crown does not have to worry about Wales or France." "The west and south coasts of England would be secure," Gwilym supplied, already plotting. "Leaving-" "Leaving only Ireland and Scotland in rebellion," Fitz finished for him. "In addition to your army, the King will supply you with knights and ships and whatever else you need. If your army fights more than forty days, the Crown will pay you for it," he said, knowing Gwilym's sticking point: King John had simply ordered the Welsh to war almost constantly for years, always swearing he would reimburse them, but never did. "There is no catch, William; it is a bona fide offer. The King of England is a boy. He needs as little war, and, in truth, as little expense, as possible for the next few years. He cannot have the French army camped ten miles outside of London." "There is always a catch, Fitz. I have received gifts from the King before," Gwilym said. "I am not- The King is not a fool. I will not put the entire English Army at the disposal of you, a Welshmen, without accompanying you, William. Duana will stay at Court, of course, just in case you decide England needs liberated from the Normans as well as the French. Your first son was not a powerful enough incentive to keep you in line, but I think Duana would be." "No," Gwilym replied immediately. "Not like Gruffydd. Not even like the other Welsh boys as noble foster sons who had the run of the Court. Duana stays here as a royal guest. She was the Countess of Pembroke and my stepmother; I will see she is treated properly. You have my word." "I have also had the King's word before, thank you." "Gwil-" Llewelyn hissed at him. "All of Wales, damn it. My son! Yes, Lord William accepts your offer," Llewelyn answered Fitz, by now forgetting about Henry. "No! We have two babies in Wales. Someone came into her apartment last night and attacked her! Struck her!" Gwilym argued in stilted French. "Who struck her?" Fitz demanded, squaring his shoulders. "Did you see? "No, if I saw, I would not be pissing around and discussing it with you; the man who struck her would be dead." FitzWalter was shaking his head; he had not understood Gwilym, but he was scowling unhappily. He called for his knights and, leaning close, issued a low, tense order. Llewelyn looked equally angry. "What happened?" "Duana will not say, and I cannot find out or protect her because I am here paying homage to the boy-king with you," Gwilym reminded him angrily. "I swear that I will remain in England and butcher whomever you and the Norman King deem the enemy. May I go to my wife?" he demanded in Welsh. Llewelyn exhaled unhappily, but FitzWalter was still speaking with his knights. When he turned back to the Welshmen, he said, "I mean it, Lord William, Prince Llewelyn - on my honor, she will be safe. Henry!" Fitz said sharply. The King looked up, distracted from a bug he had been watching. "You are finished. You may go see Lady Duana now. Right now. We will accompany you." "Who?" Henry asked. "My father's wife," Fitz answered impatiently. "Oh!" the boy replied happily, scrambling down from the dais. "Do you think there will be plums? I would like a plum." *~*~*~* "What is this?" Gwilym asked sharply, pointing to a tray of untouched food sitting on a table outside Duana's apartment. "Breakfast," the guard answered. "Breakfast? Why is it out here? It is difficult for my wife to eat food which is in the hall." The poor young knight, who had been guarding the door since he replaced the sick guard last night, blinked, terrified of Lord Gwilym's temper, but numb from his lack of sleep. "I have let no one past this door, my lord. Not in nor out. Not a soul." Gwilym, already furious, started to see red. "I did not mean the damn maid you idiot! How could you think I would order you not to let my wife eat? Do I look like a Norman to you?" He had his sword halfway out of the sheath when Llewelyn grabbed his arm, ordering him to stop. Old King John had starved a few prisoners to death; if Fitz understood enough Welsh to realize Gwilym was talking about Normans and starving women, there could be trouble. Gwilym seemed set on getting his neck stretched this morning. "I am going to kill someone very soon, and I am several months out of practice with executions. I think I will warm up on this fool!" "Gwil! Stop it!" Llewelyn demanded, then suggested to the knight, "I would get out of his sight, boy." No one needed to tell him twice. The guard hurried down the hallway, then, glancing back at Gwilym, broke into a trot in his haste. *~*~*~* Llewelyn brought his hand too quickly toward Duana's face, she flinched, and without thinking, Gwilym reached for his sword again. FitzWalter stepped forward threateningly, and the royal knights with him moved to stop Llewelyn. The Welsh knights drew their swords to protect Prince Llewelyn from Fitz's guards, and for a few seconds, there was a tense standoff between Wales and England. Duana continued sitting on the sofa and staring at the floor. "Take care," Gwilym reminded Llewelyn as the prince surveyed the mark on her cheek. Fitz nodded in agreement. Gwilym exhaled and folded his arms, standing beside Duana. Closer to the door to the hall, Fitz crossed his arms across his chest as well, and shifted his feet restlessly. The Welsh and English knights just glared at each other. Sitting beside Duana, the King of England was oblivious. Llewelyn gestured for Duana to tilt her head and pull back her veil so he could see the bruise without touching her. "Yes, that is a hand print. Who hit you, Duana?" he said softly, squatting down so they were eye to eye. "Is that all he did?" "There are no marks on her," Gwilym supplied. FitzWalter looked from Duana to the unmade bed in the next room, and then to Gwilym. His stern expression did not change, but he shifted his feet again. Llewelyn stood up. "Who struck her?" "She will not say," Gwilym reminded him. "She is your wife. Make her say, Gwil." Llewelyn was angry and sympathetic, but he also wanted to go get his son out of The Tower. And he was hungover. And he stunk. Trust Gwilym to have a crisis on this of all mornings. "Llewelyn, this is Lady Duana," Gwilym introduced sarcastically. "Cariad, Prince Llewelyn of Wales. Obviously, you have not met my wife, Llewel." "You will answer your husband," Llewelyn ordered sternly. "Or suffer the consequences." "You want me to hurt her until she confesses to me who has hurt her?" Gwilym responded scornfully. "This is why I plan the battles, Llewel." The Prince of Wales glared at Gwilym, his head still pounding. "Enough," FitzWalter intervened, stepping forward. "I will deal with this." "Please do not, Fitz," Duana pleaded, speaking for the first time since she opened the door and found three men, the boy-king, and a dozen royal and Welsh guards waiting in the hallway. "Do not protect you?" Fitz argued back. "Let him hurt you yet again? I should have killed Edward years ago and been done with it, regardless of Father." Gwilym's chin shot up. He had a name. "Edward?" "Please, Fitz," she tried one last time. "Edward is my stepbrother. He is... He is not sane; possessed maybe. My father's stepson by his first wife - there is no blood between us. My men discovered him outside the castle last night. I knew he would try to get to Duana, but I did not realize he already had." FitzWalter worried his lower lip momentarily, then said, "You will tell me what crime he should be charged with, Duana." King Henry looked up. "That is not the law," he reminded Fitz helpfully, as two royal guards appeared with a dark-haired man a little slimmer and shorter than Gwilym. "I did nothing to her, Fitz," Edward said, not waiting to be asked why he had been brought from the dungeon to Duana's apartment. "I give you my word, brother." "Your word will hold no more water than a sieve, brother." "It is still my word; my word against a Welshman's that I struck her and not he." Gwilym paced behind Duana, looking dangerous, but the Welsh guards were keeping him corralled to one end of the sitting room, with the sofa and a line of knights between Gwilym and Edward. "You know quite a bit about what you are accused of for an innocent man," Gwilym said, feeling his chest rising and falling as he breathed faster. "Duana, is this who was here last night?" She ignored him, so Fitz said tersely, "You know I will not see you hurt, Duana. Your Welsh husband, however, I have no qualms about torturing. Either tell me what crimes to charge Edward with, or I will hold William in contempt of the Crown." Duana focused on the wall behind Fitz as she said, "It does not matter, Fitz. King Henry is correct: there is no witness, so there is no crime." The boy-king nodded in agreement. He had been learning law with his tutors just last week. Edward looked at Gwilym and grinned triumphantly, which was a bad, bad idea. Fitz shifted his weight from one foot to the other. That was indeed the law. Henry would have to rule according to the Magna Carta, and he could not teach Henry to be just if Fitz put aside the law anytime he pleased. The best plan was to have his men follow Edward and kill him in secret, but that was not going to sit well with the Welshmen. "I want you out of England-" was as much as Fitz said before Gwilym's face flushed. Llewelyn, anticipating his reaction, grabbed one arm while one of the Welsh guards held the other. "That is it? We all know he struck her, and you are just going to banish him? You think that is justice, Fitz?" "It is the law," Fitz replied tightly. "It is not the law in Wales," Llewelyn argued, equally unhappy. "We are not in Wales." "You are a dead man, Edward!" Gwilym assured him, as Duana whispered to Henry to get up from the sofa and move away. "They can hang me, but you will not see another sunrise!" "Your French is good, for a bastard Welshman," Edward replied, laboring under some delusion that Prince Llewelyn could keep Gwilym from killing him for very long. "You should teach a few words to your Celtic women so they know how to be appreciative of an Norman soldier's attention." "They do teach us a French phrase," Duana replied, standing and stepping closer to Edward. "They teach us to ask 'is it in' so we can tell." The guards, both Welsh and English, were focused on Gwilym's struggling, so no one had time to intervene before Edward lashed out, hitting Duana hard enough to knock her to the floor. "Goddamn it!" Gwilym yelled, managing to get one arm free. "Goddamn it - stop that! I will slit your throat, you son-of-a-bitch!" FitzWalter had Edward by the neck and was holding him against the wall, starting to squeeze the life out of him, before he realized Henry was watching, frightened. Duana stayed down, dazed, and by the time her head cleared, the guards were holding Edward again, and Gwilym was free. Llewelyn passed Gwilym a handkerchief, which he pressed to her bleeding nose, his hands shaking. Fitz was looming over her, looking like he wanted to take her from Gwilym. "Dead man," Gwilym promised Edward, cradling Duana against him, and, beside him Llewelyn nodded in agreement. If FitzWalter did not have the stones to execute this man, they would hunt him down as soon as he left London. "He is a dead man," Fitz said, more shaken than he wanted to appear. He exhaled. "We have a dozen witnesses. Henry, what is the penalty for striking another man's wife?" "Prison," Henry answered, twisting his fingers together anxiously. Henry had seen his father strike his mother Isabelle plenty of times, and it had made his stomach hurt. Now Fitz was married to Henry's mother: they quarreled, but Fitz did not hit her. Fitz did not like Mother, though - he did not say it, but Henry knew. Henry wondered if it was just his mother, or if all wives were irritating and quarrelsome. He had never seen Walter Marshall beat Countess Duana though, even when she would tease or disagree with her husband. They were always nice to each other, and Henry had liked staying in Pembroke castle much better than living in London with Mother and Father. "If he tried to rape a noblewoman?" Fitz asked. "What is the penalty?" "Death," Henry replied, making himself a small target in the corner of the sofa. "Was he going to rape her, Fitz?" he asked, not sure exactly what that entailed. Fitz nodded yes, ordering the guards to take Edward to The Tower. "Wait," Henry remembered. "Did she insult him? It is not a crime of she insults his manhood. Did she do that?" He glanced nervously at Duana and Lord William still sitting in the floor. William lifted the cloth briefly to see if her nose had stopped bleeding, which it had not. Prince Llewelyn sucked in his breath disapprovingly. Fitz looked from Duana to Edward's defiant expression and back to Henry. "No, she did not insult him." "Good. Well, then he can be executed," Henry said happily, thinking maybe Duana would like a drink of water to help her feel better. "Take him away." "Goodbye, Duana," Edward said, his eyes as lifeless as a dead fish's as he stared at her. "I love you. And I have loved you, whether you liked it or not. I have, Father had. Poor Fitz; will it ever be your turn?" "Take him away," Fitz ordered tersely. *~*~*~* "Come," Gwilym said, looking up from the maps and lists to see Duana finally awake and standing in the doorway of the bedchamber. "How are you feeling, sleepyhead?" She opened her mouth, getting as far as "fi-" when he held up one finger. "Like a lunatic hit me in the face. Twice. Like I have just had a baby and then ridden across Wales and England in the snow. My brain is full, and my stomach is empty." "There is soup for you; I did not think you would want to chew. Come, eat, and make me feel better." "Is he-" "Dead? Very. Fitz had him hanged by noon and you slept through it all. Eat. Then we will talk." Gwilym waited until she had sat down on the sofa and taken a single sip of the chicken broth before he observed, "You look as though you lost a fight." "I was supposed to lose a fight, William," she replied calmly. "That was the idea. You should see my opponent." "True." He furrowed his brow. "I would have dealt with Edward, if FitzWalter did not. I do not like that you did that." "I never thought you would." She studied her soup for a few seconds before she told him, "Fitz would not have let him live, William. He just did not want to admit it in front of Henry. If you had killed Edward in front of King Henry, though: that would be your body hanging in the bailey." Gwilym made a noncommittal but disapproving noise in the back of his throat, and said nothing. "What are you doing?" she asked. "Why do you have all these maps? Are you going to war?" He considered whether or not it would be possible to extract any information about Edward from her, and decided it was about as likely as men flying to the moon. "I am playing a very large game of chess with real pawns and castles and knights. You, it seems, are the queen of hearts." He brought the largest map with him, sitting on the floor in front of the sofa so she could see over his shoulder. "War?" she asked again. "Fitz is sending you to war?" "A little one," Gwilym lied. "You will stay at Court until I return." He pretended to study the parchment until the silence from behind him was unbearable. "Welsh Court? With Prince Llewelyn?" "No, here in London." "And, and Mab? And Eimile?" she asked, her voice making his throat tighten. "They will stay with your mother and Llewelyn's wife in Wales. I will not risk bringing them through the mountains in February. Perhaps in the spring, cariad." "London spring in April or-" Her voice kept getting smaller and smaller, "Aber spring in late May, William?" "Watch: the King wants the French out of Dover here in the south. My troops are wintering here," he said and indicated to Wales. "The Norman armies are here above London. If I-" he began before Gwilym heard something suspiciously like a sob. "Do not cry. I forbid you to cry." he ordered, and discovered he was talking to her back as she walked quickly to the bedchamber. Abandoning his maps, Gwilym followed her, finding her face down among the pillows. "Go away," she ordered him, which he ignored, climbing onto the bed, boots and all, and sitting beside her. "How can Fitz do this? How can you do this?" He reached his hand out several times before he settled it on her back, rubbing gently. "I did not do this. We would leave tomorrow if I had my way. The King wants me to help him win a war, and he plans to hold you here until I do it. If I win, Llewelyn can take his son home and the King will give him, and me, most of the land in south Wales." "That does not even make sense, William," she said, her words muffled by the pillow. "Do not say 'the King' when you mean 'Fitz.' Fitz will keep me here while he sends you off to die." "No," he insisted, turning her over. "No, I tell them what to do, nothing more. The other generals will lead the armies. I will never ride into battle, I promise." She sniffed, looking up at him with her red-rimmed eyes and poor, swollen cheek. "That promise is like that gray cloak I cannot peel off your back: so thin that I can hold it up to the sun and see sunlight through it. You told me once you had been too busy saving the world to take care of your family, your 'echen.' You said you would never let that happen again. That is exactly what you are doing now. That was one of the first Welsh words I learned because you said it so much - talked about your family. Your 'echen' and your 'cariad.' I am always 'cariad' - you must make that distinction to everyone, including me: I am cared for indirectly, casually, conveniently. It is not the same word, William. Beloved, because you had no choice in marrying me, but not loved." "You are too tired; you know that is not true." Gwilym wrapped his arms around her, pulling a stiff, unwilling Duana against him. "And you know I have no choice. This war is a game of strategy, like I said. What happened the first time we played chess? What did I do?" She buried her face in his shoulder, not wanting to answer. "No, Duana: what did I do?" "You, you lured me. You attacked and then retreated until I was sure I could beat you, so I attacked. Then you surrounded me and moved in from all directions." "Do I ever lose?" "No, William," she sniffed, reaching up to stroke his face, "You never lose. No matter what it costs, you never lose." He watched her damp eyes in the candlelight, trying to think up something brilliant to say to make this better, but words did not come. "Do not lose, William. Our year is not yet up." "What year?" "For a year and a day nothing can come between us. The Druids - the ceremony. Our year has not ended. Do not break that vow to me." "I will not," he promised. *~*~*~* End: Hiraeth VI: Echen